Shameless . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .Friday, August 22, 2003 --  tork

It's never been easy or even especially wise to be a hopeless idealist, and though I've questioned not only the depth of my na�vet�, but how rampantly unwarranted it is in a world so intent upon the contrary, what it has been proved to be in the fullness of time, however, is ultimately rewarding - for whatsoever has come before which inexorably and inexplicably lead us together I can only be but grateful, you are both a testament and a tribute to every unfounded hope I've never nursed in my heart, and I can't thank you enough for all the ways you love me.

I'm so taken with you, I always have been - in fact, today marks exactly 1 year from whence we first started to talk in those tenuous halftones of an awakened dream, and, to my inestimable joy, we have never really stopped. Looking back, I can't imagine how empty those days would have been without you there, or more to the point, how desperately tragic my blithe ignorance to go another day without having known you, without having you near. I love you, and I always will.

Oh, howsoever wonderful it has been to just know since the moment we fell in love, to feel with each shared smile, laugh, sigh and breath more loved and in love by the most giving, brilliant, classically beautiful in ways people just are not any more, vivacious, unabashedly happy... as much as I am consumed with words, it is ironic they fail me in aptly describing how wonderful you are to me.

At any rate, much to my chagrin, I have never officially proposed to you, and that's something we shall have to remedy. Of course, there's really only one way I know how to do these things - that's make a scene and embarrass us both - so now on bended knee (for true) I ask you honestly, sincerely and with the promise of a lifetime together from which to love you, to honor you and to live our dreams, will you marry me?

There is no way that I could better explain the feelings shared between us than you already have. From the way you live your life - to the little things that you do for me, I will never find a better man. I truly am the lucky one here. I can do nothing but thank you, and of course, accept - yes I will marry you, I would, and will, be proud to call you my husband.